Ella Masar Blog: Feel the Silence - USA vs. Germany
Ella Masar
10/31/2009 - 11:00 a.m.
Ella Masar, a Illinois native, is a forward for the Chicago Red Stars. She played on the U-23 U.S. Team and was recently called up to the USWNT for one of the most anticipated friendly matches of the year in the women’s international soccer world as the defending Olympic champion USA squares off against the defending FIFA Women’s World Cup champion Germany on Oct. 29 at the newly constructed Impuls Arena in Augsburg, Germany.
"The silence is something I will
never forget.
It is something that will be stored
in my mind more than any other.
More than walking into the locker room and seeing for the first time
Masar on the back of a Red, White, n Blue Jersey. More than coming out of the
tunnel to hearing boos to a sold out arena. Even more than Pia Sundage patting me on the back asking me
if I was ready, me simply smiling, and telling her thank you.
Then hearing 30,775 (we had maybe
250 fans for us) opposing fans go mute as we flew from the bench cheering our
lungs out when we went up 1-0 in Augsburg, Germany less than 24 hours ago is
still outrageous to me.
That might seem odd to you but to
feel for almost 90 minutes that you cannot hear yourself think from the amount
of noise surrounding you to remembering a distinct moment where you could of
heard a pin drop...
… K seriously - close your eyes,
really try to in vision that. Try to fathom two people standing on either side
of you just screaming their lungs out. Screaming so loud that all you wish is
to get some Bose canceling headphones (using them now, so great lol) to drain
the sound out. Imagine that racket going on for ALMOST an hour and for a minute
or two right in the middle where there was peace and quiet.
Yeah I know, crazy huh?!?!
Okay, I might be exaggerating a tad
however that is in fact the only way my mind seems to recall Abby’s goal. For
most of the first half the roar from the fans of the #2 team in the World was overwhelming. The confusion on
the field was evident with simple mistakes where communication was key. I mean I couldn’t even talk to Tobin
Heath, who was sitting right next to me without yelling.
The Germans were definitely in full
form with coming at our back line on countless occasions. Whether it was from
centrally, left or right, they definitely held true to their form of a very
organized and fine oiled machine.
Yet, us Americans, stuck true to our name and didn’t back down from the
fight.
Even though we had to save two from
inside our own 6 and probably had 60% of the game played in our own half, we
found a way win, and as Pia says,
“we should never take that for granted!”
The funny part about all of this was
knowing subconsciously that I would eat my words for Bayern being my best
“soccer” experience in my life so far.
As amazing as it was to see those guys perform at that level, I don’t
think anything can take away from standing in a corner of a stadium watching
31,000 people do the wave all the way around.
I have to say it’s a completely
different feeling of being on the field to being the one in the stands ;) I
will also admit that I had no expectation to go in the game. On this level you aren’t going to get
the thumbs up or the pat on the back before the game. You are expected to be ready when you’re called on. Whether that is for the last 18 minutes
of a game, for 90 minutes, or for one, you don’t get a time to think or
evaluate.
When it’s your time to go you are
ready. You are ready because of
the sacrifice and hours of training you have done to get you to that
point. You do what you know best,
you trust your instincts, and you play with every ounce of your heart.
On October 29th, 2009 at
7:13 pm (1:13 Midwest time;) every emotion/feeling of me puking up my pre game
meal left me. I touched the grass on the other side of what seemed a five-foot
thick white line and sprinted onto my sanctuary. There was no more screaming
fans, no pressure of me getting my first cap; there was one thing on my mind -
run.
Pia made it clear, there was 17
minutes left and it was my job to put pressure on the backs and make the runs
in behind. With every ounce of
energy I had that’s what I did. I
still don’t even know if I did a good job, I just know that when that whistle
blew I felt as if I had ran as hard, as fast, as I could.
As I fly back to the wonderful US of
A I can’t say I feel much different then when I left. I have accomplished a
part of my dream, however, now that I have been there I know it’s time to work
that much harder to return.
I do not know if I will get called
into the next camp in December and honestly that is I something can’t focus on.
So for now I am going to take the next week off and then get right back into
it. I started this dream of mine to make an impact, to make a difference, to
prove where there is a will there is a way…
This amazing process just re-establishes
the fact that ANYTHING is possible to those who BELIEVE. So folks, its back to
business for me …
;) Happy Halloween"
-Ella Masar